the crush crushes, too

NaPoWriMo #16

I finally snatched the chance
to shoot my shot and shot
it with precision and purpose.

being friends first helped us.
and although a “yes”, is not
the answer . . . the door is n o t
closed to further discussion.

the crush crushes, too.
and loving me is important to her.
losing me she doesn’t want to see.

I now know the gift of being
held in high regard by someone
who secretly crushed on
me, too.


Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

I recently signed up to write on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing as I speak about the most recent events with my place of employment as it pertains to racism and discrimination. I welcome your visit.

blast

NaPoWriMo #8

Written and created by Tremaine L. Loadholt

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

I recently signed up to write on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing as I speak about the most recent events with my place of employment as it pertains to racism and discrimination. I welcome your visit.

Peace and blessings!

lifeteller

NaPowriMo#3 A Haiku & Review of Séduire by Michele Lee

AI-Generated image with a Black woman who has her hair in a natural updo. She is wearing a midnight blue top and slacks that match. She is looking at a White woman who has strikingly silver hair, wearing a tan long-sleeve shirt, and jeans. They are both sitting on a couch deep in thought – pausing to reflect.

storytellers dwell
in the corners of l o s t paths
waiting for their sun


I am honored to share a review and interview from the incomparable and indomitable Michele Lee at my inspired life.

“Storytelling can entertain and offer escape, but those with the courage to offer life telling – exposing destructive situations and sinister behavior that can lurk in the shadows – offer a path for change.

Author Tremaine (trE) L. Loadholt is one such lifeteller, a term I thought of (last night) when thinking about her storytelling abilities. She does captivate the reader with her writing; however, she writes stories that reflect real life, which can be real tragic, abusive, and not always have a happy ending. I applaud trE for weaving difficult subjects into her short story collection, Séduire: Serial Tales & Flash Fiction. Her stories offer hope, too, which highlights this writer’s ability to not only write about darkness and evil but attempt to transform it.

Séduire is separated into fourteen stories that introduce a variety of characters who seem so real, it is hard to believe that they aren’t! The author’s talent for character development is what stood out to me when I finished reading her collection and what compelled me to send trE a few questions, which she graciously answered (below). For those who appreciate real life scenarios, complex characters, and diverse dialogue offered in short story form, I highly recommend Seduire, and if you’re a writer, you may also be inspired to become more observant about human behavior after reading trE’s book.

Questions for trE about reading and writing:

Tell us about the inspiration for your characters. (real people, movies, other books, observations, a combination)

To be honest, characters speak to me. They present themselves to me whether I want to be an intruder in their lives or not. They come to me with their problems, their joy, their sadness, accomplishments, etc. And they will NOT SHUT UP until I’ve written their story.

I wish there was something else I could tell you, some writing exercise that I do to coax a story or character to life, but really that’s mainly it. They speak. I listen. Then, I write.

Who is your favorite character from a book you’ve read and what makes that character stand out?

Tangy Mae, a character in the book The Darkest Child, by Delores Phillips. Tangy is brilliant. She is resilient while living a life full of struggles and dealing with a mom who verbally and physically shows her disdain for her children. She is a fully-developed character who made my soul ache, and I will read that book a million times over to feel what I feel each time I read it.

It is apparent in reading your work that you have great empathy for others. Please describe how writing may help you process all that you may feel in relation to the burden of others.

Writing is a release. I am hypersensitive and an Empath; so much so that in the past, when I didn’t have quite the best grip on my emotions and how the pain of others would affect me, I would be in physical pain because I would take on the hurt of my loved ones.

That is not a healthy life to live. Writing and therapy have helped me with continuing to acknowledge the pain of others but to detach from it. I can be aware and stand in solidarity with the hurting ones and recognize their voices should be shared and heard without hurting myself.

What do you find most challenging about creating and developing characters?

Honestly, it’s not really creating characters that’s a challenge for me, it’s getting them to be quiet. Sometimes, I don’t feel like writing. I would rather not experience their pain or tell a happy tale or share their defeats with others. But I’m forced because these fully-formed characters will not let me rest until I’ve completed their life’s story. I actually have more of a problem letting go of some of the characters I’ve created, and some readers do, too.

One character, Aunt May, from an ongoing series I did had reached her end–I wrote her death into an installment and then, the funeral in the next. Readers were LEGIT mad at me for months for killing off the character, but she was becoming such a part of my life that it was going to be harder to let her go if I didn’t do so when I did.
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Anything else you would like us to know about Séduire or your writing process?

I write because I have to. I write because it is a healer. It has given me life that I needed and had forgotten I could live. If you read Séduire, I am almost certain, you will feel that.”


To read the entire breakdown and post, please visit Michele’s wondrous site for “Lifeteller (writer spotlight)“.

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet? I recently signed up to write for Substack as well. My first post, “I Said I Wouldn’t Do It” is live, and my second post “Unknowingly Inviting a Beast to Dinner” was published yesterday morning. I welcome your visit.

a sustainable love

Mook’s birthday poem

a sustainable love: Mook’s Birthday Poem created with Canva.

I haven’t always been my best self
but who has?
you have been by my side:
trustworthy, steadfast, honest, and sure.
I wouldn’t want anyone else
doing this battling life with me.

over two decades have passed, and we’re still
standing – still lending listening ears – still
comforting each other when peace
is interrupted.
we have gained more than we lost.

our lives have been touched by the
beauty of growth and we are walking
up immeasurable ladders of time – patience
tested at every turn, yet we stand.

if ever a war enters your realm, I will
be ready to unleash a wrath
no one saw coming.


I am certain, if you have been reading my work for years, you’ve seen many poems written about and for Mook. Today is her birthday, and I am blessed beyond measure to still know, still love, still be able to look at this woman and say, “Hey! That’s my best friend, and I will go to war for her!” Because I will. Happy Birthday, boo! May it be everything you want and need it to be from this moment and for all to come.

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

Photos From This Past Weekend

Basement hallway vibes – on the way to the fitness room. Saturday, March 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Saturday morning workout: feeling good, feeling great. Saturday, March 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
The Little Monster in her most relaxed state. There have been no more seizures since last Sunday. *Knocks wood* Saturday, March 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
I started reading this book this past Friday evening and finished it on Saturday. I simply cannot believe how talented this writer was. If I am not mistaken, I read she is no longer with us in the WordPress community. The book mentioned she had struggled with breast cancer for 17 years and was taking the hospice & palliative care path. I reviewed this book via Amazon and Goodreads. It’s an amazing collection of gut-punching poetry. Saturday, March 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday morning workout. I’m down 15 lbs since November of 2024. And I would like to lose 15 more in the next 4-5 months. Sunday, March 09, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
I am making my own sauces, pickles, toppings, compotes, etc. I diced cucumbers for pickles this time around. The ingredients were one cucumber, fresh chopped garlic, 1/2 serrano pepper, honey, ginger, brown sugar, apple cider vinegar, white vinegar, water, and various seasonings. In the Manuka Honey squeezable bottle is the juice from my last canned pickles batch and some olive oil to act as an oil & vinegar sauce for my sandwiches/subs. Sunday, March 09, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Lentils! If you’ve been following me for a hot minute, you know I love lentils. I actually rinsed this batch that was remaining in a bag and pre-seasoned them as well. I put a little apple cider vinegar and water in with them and placed the jar back in the cabinet. I can’t wait to have lentil soup in the next two weeks or so! Sunday, March 09, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday night dinner: pan-seared rib tips, seasoned white rice, and lima beans. Sunday, March 09, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

Life is such a precious thing. Every time I think about every day I am given, I am thankful. I mentioned to the crush today that when Jernee finally does pass away, I will be completely and utterly alone. Her response to me was, “Let’s not dwell on that today, please.” I was simply stating a fact – albeit, random as it was, a fact, nonetheless. She didn’t want me to break down or shut down, and I get that. I do. Jernee’s vet visit is this coming Thursday, and we will see what’s what.

The weather has been a bit topsy-turvy since the time change, and I am dealing with some rather mischievous allergies. My left eye is red and swollen, so I guess I’ll be wearing my glasses for the next few days and not my scleral eye contacts. Spring is just around the corner, so I see it’s doling out its gifts early. *Sighs*

Here’s hoping the week ahead will be a fantastic one for all of you. Stay safe. Stay sane. Stay present!


Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

Photos From This Past Weekend

Holding on in “the times of trouble.”

Sunrise or Sunset? Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt (This is actually from Wednesday, February 26, 2025, but I just had to share it).
My best friend Mook and I, many years ago. I think this may have been in 2006 or 2007. She shared this with me on Saturday, March 01, 2025.
Saturday morning workout. Saturday, March 01, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday morning workout. I’m so weird. I have on like 3 layers in this photo. LOL! It was cold outside, and I had just returned from walking Jernee. Sunday, March 02, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Buidling Basement Gems. Sunday, March 02, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Salmon, spinach, onions, and cheesy grits. This is from Thursday night. I know it’s not the weekend, but I felt like sharing it anyway. February 27, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
My favorite girl. Jernee had a seizure on Sunday morning. This is her resting after I gave her a haircut and a bath. Sunday, March 02, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

“When it rains, it pours.” On Sunday, March 02, 2025, Jernee Timid had a seizure. It was a light episode, lasting about two minutes, and it was the first time she had one. I’ve been mentally preparing for Jernee’s transition for a few years now. The Little Monster is a fighter and seems to fight her way out of every traumatic event that has occurred to her. But this . . . this, I will not tolerate. I will not have her form a life of convulsions and episodic seizures. I just WILL NOT.

She has an appointment next Thursday with her vet for lab work and an overall checkup. They may do some other tests as well while we’re there. However, if she has another seizure, I am to call them and bring her in straight away or go to our Emergency Vet’s office. If the little one makes it to April 06, 2025, she will be 17 years old. But I have to be honest, folks . . . this really took a lot out of her, and I won’t be mad at her one bit if she doesn’t see her seventeenth birthday. I don’t want her suffering, and I will see to it that she does not.

Here’s hoping all of you had a great weekend and that you’ll have a wondrous week ahead as well.

Peace and blessings.


Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?