Category: Change

T-Shirt Message #3

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Encouraging messages that have been AI-generated as I grow through the messes and joys of life.

I know it’s not an actual “T-Shirt”, but I didn’t envision my dude looking suave in anything other than a button-down. His voice was as smooth as butter, and he looks like how I’ve always pictured my maternal grandmother’s father (whom I’ve never met) in my head. AI-Generated Image: An older White man with his hands clasped and a sweet smile on his face, wearing a beige shirt with the words, “Thank you for being there” on it. Created with Canva.

When you help someone in need, they remember it.

Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself. –Leo Tolstoy

No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted. –Aesop

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T-Shirt Message #2

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Encouraging messages that have been AI-generated as I grow through the messes and joys of life.

AI-Generated T-Shirt Message #2: He’s Still In Control. Created with Canva.

Psalm 46:10: “Be still, and know that I am God.”
Romans 8:28: “All things work together for good for those who love God.” 

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

I recently signed up to write on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing as I speak about the most recent events with my place of employment, as it pertains to racism and discrimination. I welcome your visit.

the dog and the sandman

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the dog is dead
to the world.
this kind of sleep
is what I used to have
before the change,
before the crush.

there’s too much worry
in my bones – too much
brokenness. I am
whole-body ache in
need of a salve that’s evergreen.
who will deliver?

Wednesday is just
another day that my
body confuses with
Thursday, and the mind
battles with it – warring
with an enemy who
has an army of an
undisclosed amount.

I am stuck in the middle.
the dog is still dead
to the world.
she didn’t raise her head
or bat an eye.
the sandman who visits
her is clearly not the
one who will beat down
my door tonight.

The Sunday Night Routine

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NaPoWriMo #21

I melt into myself from
a lazy day that mainly
incorporates working out,
reading, writing, cooking,
staying sane, and trying not
to spiral.

I morph into my grandmother,
who is almost 90 years old.
She is a worrier who doesn’t
understand the word “No.”
I overthink. I overanalyze.
I overcompensate for things
I should have acknowledged
from my past.

The dog is clingier than normal.
I think she believes I will
disappear without a moment’s
notice.
The TV is background noise.
It assists and acts as my
co-writer and co-creator.

I miss out on sleep waiting for
the “I’m home” message from
the crush.
She’s a night owl who walks
home from her second job,
which tears my nerves all
the way up, but I applaud extra
efforts in the pursuit of
monetary excellence.

I say several prayers that
usually involve me questioning
what God has in store for
my impending future, and
I plop my exhausted body
down on the pillow top with
the enhanced cooling foam
mattress topper, and sink into
a deep sleep.

I wake up in the middle
of the night to relieve
myself, but I don’t want
Sunday to end.
Soon after, it does. And I
am left longing for its
presence, hoping the next
five days will hurry up.

I miss Friday already.

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

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pain & denial

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NaPoWriMo #19 A One-Line Poem

it hit me today–I always knew I had
no chance in hell, but I tried to remain
confident in my shambled self–maybe
I am meant to make others feel good,
while remnants of pain catapult me closer to denial.

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

I recently signed up to write on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing as I speak about the most recent events with my place of employment as it pertains to racism and discrimination. I welcome your visit.

Photos From This Past Weekend

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Saturday morning workout: The Treadmill (my favorite!) Saturday, April 12, 2025. Video recorded by Tremaine L. Loadholt
Saturday morning workout. Feeling fit & fine. Saturday, April 12, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Hair day! It had been just over three months since my last wash & retwist/retightening. I was so happy to see my loctician and to have Ájá attended to! Saturday, April 13, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
I bought a new keyboard & mouse set for my desktop. The other set was white and clunky-looking, which didn’t match my bedroom colors and decor. I really love this set ten times better! Saturday, April 13, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Saturday dinner: chicken tenders and potato salad from TJ’s Deli. Saturday, April 12, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday morning workout. Both my left knee and right ankle do not hurt nearly as much as they used to. But, each of them gives me occasional pain. It’s best that I keep braces on them when I workout or go for long walks. Sunday, April 13, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Street Tacos at home. Sunday night dinner #1. Sunday, April 13, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Street Tacos at home. Sunday night dinner #2. The tacos have a salt & pepper seasoning on them that’s to die for! Sunday, April 13, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday night dinner. Street tacos at home. Seasoned tacos with ground beef, onions, fresh minced garlic, chopped spinach, shredded cheese, and sour cream. Sunday, April 13, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

Another weekend has come and gone, and I am now stuck with Monday. LOL! I guess I will have to make the best of it. Here’s hoping all of you will do the same, too! Enjoy the week ahead as much as you can!

Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

I recently signed up to write on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing as I speak about the most recent events with my place of employment as it pertains to racism and discrimination. I welcome your visit.

Peace and Blessings!