Category: Pain

When Alanis Slapped Serena

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Photo by Ana Bregantin on Pexels.com

I stared dumbfounded, thinking,
“Yo! Serena, I know you’re going
to react! React!”
But she didn’t, and I realized
she’s calculating, plotting,
and preparing her escape from
The Wheelers who are …
ironically just as she had been
as 1/2 The Waterfords.

I am not a lover of revenge,
I don’t think it’ll make things
better. I do, however, acknowledge
the need for human beings to
free themselves from shackles.

And when Serena crept slowly
through the door to make
her brave exit, something sinister
in me rejoiced, even though
I once wanted her demise
on a platter for a late
Friday night snack.

THMT Trailer that includes the Alanis Wheeler to Serena Waterford slap.

Wolf in the Sheep

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Musical Selection: Hezekiah Walker & LFC|Grateful

A Haibun

A black and white image of three wolves.
Photo by Tom Pottiger on Unsplash

Dear God, please help me to recognize the wolf in the sheep. Amen. — Tremaine L. Loadholt

I cannot say I have been your most humble servant, but I have served. I have been patient. I have been kind — albeit, for the days when my body aches and a few people tap dance on my nerves, I have been kind. I have forgiven the unforgivable. I have shown grace to the intolerable. I have spotted flaws and continual mishaps in those closest to me, and I have overlooked them — choosing to spot the mistakes and faults in myself and work on those, instead.

I do have a spotty temper. It appears when I least expect it, and I try to center myself in a place where peace will leave my mouth instead of pain/hurt/anguish. I don’t want to be one of those hurt people who hurt people. You know my heart.

Father give me peace
in this treacherous, sick world
I am yours to mold

There are some who are flocking toward me. Their presence seems odd — out of place. I am not familiar with the approaches they have. Are they here to help me or are they here to harm me? Please show me the wolf in the sheep. Help me determine who I should lean into and who I should fall away from.

I am trying to honor your word. I am trying to keep your commandments. But I am human, and by design, I falter. I stumble. I make horrible decisions and seek your counsel afterward. Yahweh, God of all, lend me the intelligence to seek out those who have knives ready to stab me in the back yet greet me with smiles regularly.

I desire more growth
but change begins with my heart
make me heaven’s gift

Originally published in soliloque via Medium.

Hezekiah Walker and LFC, Grateful