poachers & the first home

Two poems shared on Substack notes

poachers

I’m so tired of loose
lips sinking ships—of
human cannons
shooting us with
lies, and creating a
mass of loblollies
with the full intent to
bury us alive.

we’re more than
flesh & bone, we’re
heart & mind, and
they must’ve forgotten
we can fight when a corner
is the place they
push us in.

a faulty administration is
running a nation,
betting with money
from people who’ve
poured their last into
a country they once
loved.

they have no clue of
what they’re doing,
yet they do, and
we’re the ones dying
a long death.
but, we’re the ones
fighting to stay
alive, too.


the first home

a short workweek
ahead for me—taking
pto for a trip
back to a place that
hasn’t been home in
21 years, but it’s still
home.

I’ve been eyeballing
the weather, got my
hawk’s view on 10,
monitoring changes to be
sure travel plans won’t
meet their demise.
I need to get away.

my mother will be in
tow—my nerves will work
overtime to keep her
anxieties at bay.
I’m craving fresh seafood,
familial hugs, and time spent
with people close to
my heart.

a quick mini
vacation to recharge
my energy—strengthen my
bones. prayerfully, none of
them will break from the
weight of the pain
that the first home
can bring.


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Mythomania & What Was I Thinking?

Two poems shared via Substack notes

Mythomania

Back when I didn’t
overthink things, I
loved a woman who
lied so much,
mythomania could
have been her
middle name.

We were never going
to make it.
I made up stories
for entertainment;
she made up stories
to cover her ass.

Eventually, one of us
was going to break,
and one of us did.


Baby Tre in a fighter pose. I have no clue who took this photo, perhaps one of the hospital nurses or a family member? April 17, 1980.

What Was I Thinking?

I must’ve known the
world would be a
battlefield.

At a few hours old,
I’d already prepared
myself to fight;
hands squared into
position of
protection.

What was I thinking
as I dreamed
alongside a mother
who pushed me into
being?

Could I have been
dreaming of ways to
right wrongs without
a working definition
of them?

Did I know about all
of the nastiness
dripping from the
hearts of men, and
how that coldness
would shift God’s
creations—morph
them into living
devils?

Many ages passed
me by, and now, I
find myself standing
atiptoe, waiting for
change that doesn’t
look like it’s going
to come.


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Life in Photos #7

Daily photographic musings

Kosmos, my bamboo plant, looks incredibly cute in its new pot. I truly do love this design, and it fits Kosmos perfectly. It is one of the items I purchased from my friend’s site, which I shared in this post. Tuesday, December 30, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
A New Year’s card that I received from the truly amazing K. E. Garland. Tuesday, December 30, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
New Year’s Dinner: BBQ ribs, coconut lemon Jasmine rice, cherry tomatoes, onions, & zucchini. Yummy. Photo Credit: Thursday, January 01, 2026. Tremaine L. Loadholt
The ribs alone… because YAAASSSSSS. Thursday, January 01, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
The trail at work. Angle 1. Tuesday, January 06, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
The trail at work. Angle 2. Tuesday, January 06, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
The trail at work. Angle 3. Tuesday, January 06, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Outside: Fake plants. Tuesday, January 06, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Inside: “Real” Plants: Dora, Lyric, and Kosmos. Tuesday, January 06, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Another item that I purchased from my friend’s site, Lyfer’s Choice. Tuesday, January 06, 2026. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

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I am on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing, as I discuss recent events related to my previous place of employment, including racism and discrimination, the growth I experienced after resigning from that company, and the foibles and overall experiences of life. I welcome your visit.

Your Voices Have Been Heard

Thank you for helping me choose a name for Zumi’s toy sea turtle

Zumi’s New Friend photo collage. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

Many of you participated in choosing a “C” name for Zumi’s new friend, a beautiful toy sea turtle, gifted to us by one of my friends. From the previous post that brought on this one, the names were: Cricket, Charlley, and Coral.

I shared the post with at least ten of my closest friends and acquaintances. They chimed in with their selections, and we have named this little beauty.

saddled sea turtle
with most voted for “C” name
fits it perfectly

And the name that received the most votes is… *vigorous drumroll*

Charlley!

Honestly, I am incredibly happy that this is the name most people wanted for our new little addition. Charlley was riding high initially, ahead by 4 votes, but Coral picked up massive speed from many of my friends. Cricket only had three votes by Saturday night, so it never had a chance. The end results: Charlley: 7 votes, Coral: 6 votes, and Cricket: 3 votes.

Thank you to everyone who took an interest in participating in our little fun experiment! I appreciate your presence here, and I am grateful to be able to share the little things in my life that bring me a spot of joy with all of you.

Peace and blessings.

Happy Sunday, beautiful people!


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Not a “Jagged Little Pill”, but a Smooth Pill To Swallow

A Book Review

I admire writers who can turn words into endless quotable lists. Poetry is meant to be consumed at any given time, and every offering of jagged remnants of you is digestible at all hours of every day.

Barry Dawson Jr. IV, (BJ Dawson) is one such writer. He and I have collaborated on many pieces of poetry, meshing our words and methods together for a tad over twenty years.

I get him. He gets me. Our efforts have not been in vain, and if life favors us, we can expect more collaborative pieces in the future.

For now, please enjoy the review I have done for his second book of poetry, which is currently listed on Lulu and awaiting global distribution by other book retailers.

As a long-time collaborator and lover of wordplay, BJ Dawson did not disappoint with his second offering of poetry, “jagged remnants of you: This Chapbook Was Supposed To Be A Love Note.”

I knew when I cracked open this gem, I would find elements of Frost, Hughes, Plath, Shakespeare, and Baldwin. I also knew that I would feel the pulse of Run DMC, The Roots, Yasiin Bey, and KRS-One.

BJ has managed to lend the subject of love to us as its most undressed and wanted self. There is beauty in the ugliness of the word, whether it be stoic or in action.

Quotables are on nearly every page, and as a writer and reader of poetry, I could not contain my excitement while highlighting phrases and making notes in the margins.

This is an exceptional work of art; a masterpiece on love; the lack of it, attaining & loss of it, and the hope for it to one day show its face again wherever we may seek it, and I applaud BJ’s knowledge of love and how best to write about it.

Not only did he gift us poetry in various forms about a thing many of us have yet to grasp perfectly, but he ended the book on a brilliant note: “I am fresh out of spells and right now, I sure do miss you with a vicious numbness that just won’t let go.” Now if this isn’t a “flawless victory,” in the land of literary victors, I don’t know what is.” 

It is one thing to read a person’s work, critique it, and bask in it because you know they are going to put their all into it and so much more, just as you would. It is entirely another when you read their work and get lost in it, and all you want to do is share it with others because it’s just that good.

BJ, my friend, take a damn bow. You truly deserve it.


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I am on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing, as I discuss recent events related to my previous place of employment, including racism and discrimination, the growth I experienced after resigning from that company, and the foibles and overall experiences of life. I welcome your visit.

Zumi’s Gotta New Friend

Would you like to help us name it?!

Zumi Tye and ?!?

One of my dearest friends, Poohbs, decided to send a gift for Zumi Tye along with the items I purchased from her website. When I opened the box housing the items that would now be new features in our home, this little buddy had been wrapped separately and packaged along with everything.

I have placed the new addition in Zumi Tye’s terrarium to see how Zumi takes to it, and well… So far, Zumi hasn’t really paid much attention to it. I’m sure Zuse probably senses that it’s a toy or not a living being, but I still want to see how Zuse reacts to its presence over the next few days.

Naming things is typically my claim to semi-fame, but I would appreciate some input from all of you. I have listed three potential names for Zumi’s new friend. Which of the three should this lovely beauty of a toy be saddled with?

  1. Cricket
  2. Charlley
  3. Coral

I hope you’ve enjoyed the photo montage I’ve created of Zumi Tye and such a wonderfully colored toy sea turtle. I’ll update everyone after the new year on which name I have selected, taking into account the input from all of you in the comments.

Stay tuned!