Human: Or Do LGBTQ People Still Count as Such?

Photo by Mark Brecic via Unsplash

A revised free-verse poem turned lamentation

All you see are flaws — 
Too many to count
Too difficult to name.

They greet me in the morning;
Say, “Hey, how are you managing?
How can you become US?”
US always has it together. 
They’re related to They.
They know everything.
And if you’re not with
US, you’re against Them.

Human used to be the creature
Who remembered there
Existed love amongst everything.
Love and touch and holding 
One’s hand was more important.
Not some digital image
Concocted on a canvas made
Of lies.

It yearns for sustenance
Buried deep in
Soiled forests but
Will not take the time
To harvest.

Woe to the
Breathing being who is looking
For approval in
Sweaty bed linen
And overpriced vehicles,
They will wither and turn
Into figments of their imagination.

Gifted tongues ululate
At crescent moons, surely
Their voices will
go unheard.

Human is the creature
Who smiles in your face
And sharpens a knife
Behind your back.

It is unprepared for
Danger and never has a plan.

It turns against its brothers 
And sisters and people who
Just want to be loved instead
Of othered.

I bow, this species so thick
On my skin, 
Washing it off would
Be suicide, however, isn’t
That what US wants?


The previous version can be found here. Thank you for reading. Published in Prism & Pen via Medium.

bask

Pictured Poetry created by Tremaine L. Loadholt

bask

I remember a time when
he thought I had
fire for a spirit
and an ocean for
eyes, and then one day
“out of the blue,”
I was fire crying an ocean
of tears, instead.

I think I changed.
I think he changed.

we could no longer bask
in the presence of who
we were.
all we wanted to do
was run away from
each other.

and that ain’t love.
that will never, ever
be love.

patience

a senryu

Microlocs progress, week 3. Photo Collage Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

a reserved patience
for things wanted and revered
growth is such progress


Originally published in A Cornered Gurl via Medium.

Peace and blessings to each of you. It is my hope and prayer that every single one of you will have a safe, fun, and loving New Year’s Day and holiday weekend.

seeing clearly again

Everything I need to take care of my scleral contact lenses. My new glasses are en route. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

scleral contacts
reshaping my eyes so far
I can see clearly

everything I need
for these expensive lenses
is right before you

costing me an arm
and a leg for the best sight
I am filled with joy

Saying Goodbye to The Grieving Room

For those of you who subscribed to The Grieving Room newsletter and have followed me throughout this journey for the past four months, thank you.

Grief is a lifelong process with many obstacles and various structures and forms and I doubt there will ever be an endpoint, but I feel as though the newsletter itself deserves an endpoint.

There will always be something creative flowing within me to work through grieving, whether it be poetry, creative non-fiction, or a memoir-like essay, but at this time, I have shared what I can and I will continue to learn what I can about grief and grieving and grow with every experience.

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Thank you for coming along on this journey with me. It will not stop, but I am headed down a new path and this is my place to get off and possibly transfer.

Peace and blessings.

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3 Wins

Three things that gave me joy today:

👉🏾 Hearing a patient laugh uncontrollably

👉🏾 Watching my dog get excited about the “perfect potty spot”

👉🏾 Seeing the look on my therapist’s face when I shared a high moment about an upcoming venture

I had already planned to have an awesome day today. I prayed about it. I welcomed it with open arms, and it stayed awhile.

And now I begin my #mini #staycation, and I am looking forward to every minute of it.

Originally shared via LinkedIn. It’s been such a great day today. Happy almost Friday, beautiful people!