But Aren’t We All Spinning Now?

AI-Generated Image. Created with Google Gemini. A White man with short, messy hair, standing in the middle of nowhere, holding up a crumpled letter. He is dressed in faded jeans with a matching jacket. He is wearing glasses and has a mustache running into a beard. Above him, the sky is dark & gloomy.

I caught the last forty-five minutes
of Spinning Man, and wondered
how I had never seen such a
trainwreck of a movie before. 

I won’t bore you with the details:
it is enough to make one’s head 
roll. Men have been coercing
women into the bowels of 
dysfunction for eons.

This shouldn’t be any different. 
It wasn’t. I think I’d just had my
fill of creepiness and absurdities
for half a year. 

Isn’t it something, though? 
To remember what never happened
and not remember what has? 
To spin while standing in place? 
Aren’t we all spinning now? 

The carousel of life is packed
with people losing their minds
under the guise of “survival of
the fittest,” and soon, we’ll all
be damned.


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Photos From This Past Weekend

I visited my cousin in the hospital; he’s still waiting for a heart. I don’t like hospitals; they give me the heebie-jeebies. But I love him, so I’ll keep visiting him until I don’t have to. I was most uncomfortable in that chair. Saturday, June 07, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
One of the pools here at my place. It was a dreary Saturday, so no one ventured out until much later. Saturday, June 07, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
If she does nothing else, she’s going to sleep. Believe THAT! Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday morning workout. I was feeling rather out of it, but it needed to get done. Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine. Loadholt
I worked up a good sweat. Sunday morning workout, 2. Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell of 2819 Church. He was exclaiming a key point in Matthew 23:11. I couldn’t miss his expressiveness. Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Because I am a H U G E fan of the first The Accountant movie, I watched The Accountant 2, and I loved it. It’s not as good as the first one to me, but it is DEF worth watching. I’ll watch it again this weekend, simply because I love Braxton, and it’s most interesting noticing some of the same quirks I have and do depicted in the main character, Christian Wolff. Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday dinner main dish: Tuna Casserole. Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Ladholt
Sunday dinner: Tuna casserole, turnip greens with Roma tomatoes & onions. Strawberry Lemonade was the drink of choice. Sunday, June 08, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

The weekend has always been my favorite time to run errands, wind down, relax, be creative, and cook. I also love visiting family and loving on those who I love dearly. It was yet another great weekend, and I am thankful for this. Here’s hoping all of you will have an amazing week ahead!


Have you gotten your copy of my new book: a collection of serial tales & flash fiction, Séduire (E-Book and Paperback) yet?

I recently signed up to write on Substack as well. Poking the Bear’s Belly for Fun is a place of healing as I speak about the most recent events with my place of employment as it pertains to racism and discrimination. I welcome your visit.

Photos From Memorial Day Weekend

I lived. I loved. I ate delicious food. I am better for having done so.

800°. Southpark, Charlotte, NC. Saturday, May 24, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
On the table: Yellowed beauty. Saturday, May 24, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
What we ate: My friend had a double pepperoni wood-fired grill pizza. I had their specialty wood-fired grill wings with honey bourbon sauce & house wood-fired grill Brussels sprouts. Saturday, May 24, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
A friend who is a gem (and like my kid sister), Diamond. We both worked for the contracted company of our bigger, more established company. And now that the contracted company will no longer be a thing, we are linked to each other’s lives in a way I am not with any other co-worker I have ever had. We’ve been through A LOT, and we’re still standing, still smiling, and still here for each other. The lunch spot was her suggestion. Saturday, May 24, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
She is yet another person who understands my silliness. At 23 years old, Diamond must’ve been here before. I am grateful for her presence in my life. Saturday, May 24, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
A peaceful resting spot. Jernee sleeps whenever she can and wherever she wants. Sunday, May 25, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
The movie theater. Sinners was the feature. Although it was a good movie, the hype about it was TEN TIMES BETTER. This was before six more people entered this theater. Sunday, May 25, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
And again. The seat with the napkins on it is where I sat for the film. Sunday, May 25, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
After the movie, in my car, preparing to go to the store. Sunday, May 25, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Cast-iron skillet homemade macaroni and cheese. Yes, it was delicious! Sunday, May 25, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Sunday dinner: cast-iron skillet mac-n-cheese, thinly sliced BBQ steak, & oven-baked cabbage with tomatoes & onions. Sunday, May 25, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Manifestation Monday: On Memorial Day, a small part of my day included watching/listening to an audiobook, How to Talk to the Universe. The link was sent to me by one of my long-time friends, Raina. Monday, May 26, 2025. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

I needed this break from working. I ended my time with the contracted company on Wednesday, May 21, 2025. Thursday and Friday were spent attending doctors’ appointments, visiting my cousin in the hospital, and enjoying every moment I could.

I am ready to take on whatever is headed my way, and I welcome it all with open arms.

I hope this week will be more than kind to all of you. Peace and blessings!

a Sunday with Sinners

Fandango’d the ticket for Sinners
for this morning at the
theater up the block.
a friend of mine has been
waiting for me to see it so
we can discuss it.

she’s anxious to know my thoughts,
but I haven’t movie’d in a while;
a little over two years, to be exact.
theaters make me feel out of
place… the awkward
coughs, people who talk
when the movie begins, cell
phones ringing when they should
be on silent.

my nerves usually become
so worked up, I find it hard to focus
on the movie.
therefore, if I go, I show up
early in the morning, a Sunday,
preferably, when most people
are God’ng themselves to death.

and that’s what I’ll do
today. when I have
had my fill of a movie that
has The Green Mile of hype, I’ll
come home to get a little
more God, too.

Remembering My Happy Place

A Book Review

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory by Roald Dahl. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt

When I was a child, before I became an adult before my time, it didn’t take much to put a smile on my face. I was active; I played sports, read many books, did a ton of writing, and watched movies/famous television shows.

And of course, I tore up and down the city streets with my friends, but I ensured I was inside before the street lights came on.

So, it’s no wonder, I would find myself nesting inside my happy place while reading Roald Dahl’s Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It is a beautiful place to be, and while I’m in my forties now, I feel a stronger connection to all things pure & serene.

Below is the review I did for this incredible work of fiction by such an amazing writer who was well before his time:

“Reading This Brought Back So Many Memories

And I was in my happy place for the entire reading of this book. Roald Dahl was such a master of words and personification. He truly painted so many vivid and distinctive images in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

This book is a stress-reliever. I laughed and slapped my knee at some of the verses shared by the Oompa-Loompas of the mischievously selfish and rude children. Everything about the book transported me to my grade school years.

I imagined myself in the children’s shoes; taste-testing many of Mr. Wonka’s unique creations and drinking from a chocolate river. My sweet tooth was ignited with every turn of the page.

It brought back so many memories of enjoying Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory with Gene Wilder as Willy Wonka. I found myself linking some of the scenes in the movie to a lot of the scenes described in the book.

I knew I would enjoy every moment of reading this book, and I am glad I did so.

If you feel like being nostalgic and traveling down old roads of yore, I recommend Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. You’ll definitely be happy you went along for the ride!”


During these current times, while fires blaze and wars continue to rage on, we could all use more happy places.

A Tuesday Snapshot #25

Empire Bear. ©2024 Tremaine L. Loadholt

Every Tuesday for the last 24 weeks, I have shared a favorite photo I’ve taken within the week with all of you. This week, it is . . . Empire Bear.

This is the last post of the series. Thank you for joining me throughout each week for the images/subjects/inanimate objects that caught my eye.

Peace and blessings