4891/1984

Orwell’s 1984. ©2024 Tremaine L. Loadholt

The world continues to burn.
Everyone has an agenda, but
no one has a game-plan on
how to stop the greedy from
gaining more power and the
powerful from becoming more
greedy.

“Big Brother” has his false eyes
on us, watching our every move.
Will we give our last penny to
their bullsh*t plan to alleviate
pain?
Will we morph into another
mark to make on their to-do
list?

I am falling out of love
with a place that once brought
me laughter and peace, but I
still have all my limbs and I
am not a childless mother.

I haven’t had to watch my
baby burn alive or combust
spontaneously with the push
of a button from an evildoer.

I have no murdered husband
or instantly exploded wife to
mourn; I just sit here after
devoting 8 to 9 hours of each
day increasing the net worth
of someone else, and I drown
my pain in fiction that feels real.

And while I monitor my
screen-time; both portable
and stationary devices, I can’t
help but notice how much of
my privacy is no longer private.

They’re in our thoughts.
In our foods and
clothing, too. They invade
our dreams and slaughter the
main character who is seemingly
doing well.

Because the moment you
begin to think things will
get better, the greedy and the
powerful and the “Big Brother”
with false eyes remind you
better is a century away.

seeing the world differently now

Throwback: a photo of my dad holding me and giving me some love right after he came in from work. This is what a happy 19-year-old father looks like. I was one.

seeing the world differently now

I’ve always had big, bright eyes,
the only difference is now–I see
what I should and question it
on sight. I know what is
in front of me and
behind me, too.

©2024 Tremaine L. Loadholt

NaPoWriMo #29

break loose

Weekend Getaway to Charlotte Photo Collage created by Tremaine L. Loadholt

slid away from
the comfort of
home to breathe in
different air

the dog in tow
we spend our
weekend with love
and good food

Queen City breakaway
to break away from
the monotony but
run right back to it
because . . . life must
go on