Your Version of Love

Part III An Audio Poem

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You give love a headstart
telling it to run as fast as it
can before you catch it,
subdue it, chain it, and hold
it prisoner, doomed to a life
of serving only you. 

You let it out to breathe in
two seconds of fresh air, 
claiming the sun does not
have time for an extra pair of eyes
looking over its shoulders. 
You label love a safe place
yet you castaway demons 
in the pits of its lap, 
shoving your world into
the spotlight. 

Love has its eyes on you, 
watching your every move 
as you calculate an escape from
the escape that got you here
in the first place. 

Love does not come to your aid, 
does not fix you hearty meals
made from scratch, cannot remember
the day it looked at you and wanted
to take you right where you stand, 
strip you down to bare bones,
kiss the aching places,
and soothe the locking joints in
dire need of oil and hot baths. 

You send love out on
a coffee run, tell it to bring
you decaf with double cream, six sugars, 
and a shot of espresso, but
demand your change and 
refuse to tip. 
but, you want love to see you
in full bloom, waiting for it,
heart heavy, mind full of worry, 
and a soul tired of needing the 
one thing it cannot get. 

Musical Inspiration: Imagine Dragons/Natural

Originally posted via P.S. I Love You on Medium.
Parts I & II

Guard It–Because, It’s All That You Have

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We live by it. We die by it. Emotionally charged beings do not know how to interact daily without getting into the heart of matters. We awake with it. We go to sleep with it. By design, we are sensitive, fragile in our approach to love, yet we can be strongest if others depend on us. “Above all else, guard your heart.” My heart is my center. It is my core. It beats for so many roles that it has in my life and on most days, I’m afraid that I’m overworking this incredible muscle. But every single day, I am proven wrong.

When I believe that I am broken beyond repair, I am reminded to love. When I feel that all hope is lost, I am reminded to love. When I allow the events of this world to weigh me down, in an effort to keep going and spread decent messages, I allow myself to continue to love. If you know me, you know that what I do is done passionately and with a direct focus on love. I cannot turn it off. I have been in the healthcare industry for fifteen years because all I have ever wanted to do was help others in some way, shape, or form. I am the glue in my family, keeping us together. With power granted to me by the Almighty, I have sustained many years of treachery, yet I am still standing. And willing…

To Love.

There are several things you may not know about me. I will share them here. I do not have a Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, What’s App, Snap Chat, or any other trendy account where constant drivel is shoveled out on a daily basis by a world that is losing its grip on love. I do not watch the news, if there’s something I wish to know so that I can be in the know, I will search a trusted news outlet and read it. My only vice in the arena of news is the Weather Channel.  I do not watch any videos where people are being beaten, burned, mutilated, mistreated, or lured into traps laid out by the evil-doers of this world.

Self-Preservation: it is what keeps me going.

My heart, it has seen a plethora of differences in people, places, and animals, yet it still wants to love. Yearns to love. For this reason, I must guard it. I must protect it from those eager to persuade me in some way with their shady schemes. People can be extremely harmful when it comes to characteristics and certain quirks and I have had my share of imbeciles to know when one is lurking about. It can be easy to fall prey and become a victim, especially during these times.

I do not believe I have ever felt the saying, “We are living in our last days” as much as I do now. My prayer is that humanity gets its act together and quickly. My heart and I are waiting. So, while we wait, I will get better in ways that I should. And while we wait, I will learn more about how I can strengthen others around me who have trouble loving while guarding their hearts. And hopefully, they can help me where it is needed most too. The heart can make or break us.

It is beating. Do you hear it?