A Haibun
She dreamt she was left-handed – sun tilting just right on her pale skin. Did it make her wise? Was she on a spiritual journey? Would she wake up left-handed? She hadn’t realized just how quickly life was flashing before her eyes. A race stood before her, but her legs were tired of running. The dream wouldn’t be the end of this conundrum. When your mother names you “Memory”, dreams are the last things on your mind.
right-handed she was
but left in a dream deferred
breaking past curses
An update on Jernee: Jernee’s vet visit was yesterday for the seizure she had last Sunday. They did blood work and did an overall checkup, too. Her vet said her left back paw has a delayed reflex response, which is a spinal cord issue and can be coming from her brain (possible growth or tumor). To determine what’s going on and confirm a growth or tumor, an MRI is recommended. The cost is expected to be anywhere from $3,000 to $5,000.00. This only confirms if there’s a growth or a tumor; this does not prevent the seizures, and neither would the medication if she is prescribed medication (it only stops the frequency of them and may make them milder).
For now (as per the vet’s request), I’ll monitor her, keep a seizure log, and if they happen more frequently and last longer, we can discuss end-of-life options. I am going to buy a camera and set it up in my living room, so there will be video coverage of Jernee while I am away at work. I want to make sure my baby isn’t having any seizures when I am not at home. And now . . . I miss working from home. *Sighs* Such is life and life still won’t defeat me.
A Cornered Gurl 
Wow. Sorry 🙏 about the medical issues your fur baby is experiencing. I pray for a good recovery.
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Thank you!
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First, I’m sad to hear about your fur-baby. She is loved and prayed for all the way over here. Know that.
The dream. 😉 . Left handed. Funny dream. The poem gorgeous.
Be well.
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🙏🏾🩵
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I’m sorry Tre! I pray that Jernee isn’t in pain.
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Hey, there! She’s okay. Thankfully. It’s just a day by day thing, really. I’ve got the camera so I can keep an eye on her occasionally while I’m at work and play back the footage when I get home.
My old girl is a fighter.
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She is definitely a fighter!
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All the best to Jernee ❤️.
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Thank you kindly. 🙏🏽💙
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Heartbreaking news, but your strength and commitment to Jernee are truly admirable. That veterinary bill is incredibly stressful, but the fact that you’re so focused on her well-being and are already taking steps to monitor her seizures shows how much you love her.
The idea of the camera is excellent – it will give you peace of mind and valuable data to share with the vet. Keeping a detailed seizure log is also crucial for diagnosis and treatment planning.
And you don’t need me to tell you you’re not alone in this. Reach out to your support network for emotional support when your tank is running low.
Sending you and Jernee all my best wishes, and I hope that further investigations provide some clarity and a path forward.
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Thank you so much, Rhyan. I truly appreciate this. I truly do. 🙏🏽💙
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Still praying for Jernee. 🙏🏿❤️
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Thank you! I appreciate that. She’s a fighter, a real trooper!
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