Creative Things

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A free verse audio poem

My laptop, the book I’m currently reading (Watering Words by Bridgette Kay), and the remotes to my living room TV. Photo Credit: Tremaine L. Loadholt
Creative Things by Tremaine L. Loadholt

It’s hard to explain, I create when
I need to–when the weight of life
sneaks up on me and wrecks my brain.
There’s nothing like moving words
from one section of your heart to another…
nothing like massaging your scalp to
push out stories that have been trapped
inside for weeks; a literary birthing of art.

Background noise, not a deterrent…
I block whatever doesn’t fill me.
I ignore the unimportant.

A writer’s words will see the light
even if darkness has a grip on
their sleeve–they’ll find a way.

My neighbor is taken with me — smitten.
It’s cute.
I’m sure it could have been even cuter
if I hadn’t warped her brain by revealing
my age. I know what it feels like to
crush on someone out of your league…
out of your rank.
20 years my junior, I’ll pass. I can’t
see myself tuning into someone I
could have given birth to.

I never thought I’d see the day
when I’d say, “I am sure I’m way
older than you. How old do you think
I am? My guess, you’re in your 20s,
right?” And right, I was. The look
of shock that swept across her face
was madness to my spirit.

Should I grow more gray hair?
Am I aging backward?

The creator in me wants to poem
the night away, but the thinker
in me allows the words to marinate–to gel.
I have to find a way to build blocks
with the stories I wish to tell… to
wrap them around the stairway to
heaven.

I think there’s a race passing me by,
watching me side-step and
break my ankles just to be
rid of people who are distractions.
I want more creative things, like
the stickers on my laptop, the titillating
words of a fellow author, and the
sacred sunset that’s never on time.

More creative things…
I crave them, and until I am fed,
hunger will ravage me.

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11 thoughts on “Creative Things”

    • It’s admirable, to be honest. But I just don’t want anything to get misconstrued or taken to a level it doesn’t need to go.

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  • Oh geez..where as when Jess discovered at 28 that I was 40 she began to pursue me (a rough road for her initially because I was getting off a pattern of dating older, at 36 I was with a 56 yr old woman and let me be the first to say that 20 yr gap really slowed the pace to a point of boredom on my end 😂)

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    • Yeah, and I’m not going there. No, thank you. My mind won’t allow it. I agreed to hang out with her and a few of her friends, and I’m already on pins and needles about that cuz what am I about to do out with some 20-something year olds?! I’ll surely be driving myself cuz I know I’m going to want to leave 15 minutes after we get to wherever we’re going to go. 🤣😆😂

      Nah, she’s aware and knows I have ZERO interest in anything else than being her neighbor. The Crush has my heart, even if we’re never going to be anything but friends, that woman has a hold on me, and she knows it.

      This young one… nope. Nope. NOPE. 🤣😆😂

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