I tap —
backspace seven times,
an email I said I
would not send and I am
here, in front of a computer
listening to music that
only reminds me of
you.
I flit —
I flow from one
word to the next.
there is no calming of
nerves
no antidote suitable
enough to render me
settled.
rice is bubbling,
broccoli roaring in the pot
turkey wings sizzling with
sweet potatoes, still I
backspace… tap — flit — start
and stop all over again.
I am not here.
I watch each word appear,
letter by letter
every thought is centered around
a looming memory.
my “E” key is stuck,
I strike it back to life.
I can’t have it dying
on me.
not now.
not today.
I am amusing myself,
you see?
This is a great space,
in between theories and spoons
and matrixes and moons.
And I convince myself
that these are not words
and there was no us
and this is not a letter
so it is not real.
None of it.
But it was, wasn’t it?
The archives have more
than their share of drafts —
this one, though.
it’s finally finished.
but I flag the
send button from sight
too afraid to commit
these words to a pair
of eyes that spent the
last nine months
forgetting what I look
like.
Originally published on September 10, 2017, via Medium.
Amazing with a capital A, all of it, truly pulls me into the scene as if a fly on the wall of your home and mind…..excellence my friend ❤
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Thank you, Kim.
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Oh dear God. ZIP. Right on target….again!!! Man…. ❤️
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Thank you. Haha. It’s good to see you again! 😊
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Thanks! You too! Forever playing catchup… 🤣
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Haha. You’re welcome. Take your time.
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❤️😊☀️
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…and via Kirsty is where I saw it. This really is a stunning piece of writing trE. Well done.
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Thank you, Peter! I truly appreciate that!
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It’s nice to share… and this piece by my blogger friend trE is just so good, it’s stayed with me since I first read it a few years ago. Enjoy.
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This is incredibly well written and vivid and powerful – awesome writing
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Thank you, lady.
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Hello there!! What exquisite prose you’ve woven together. The scene is masterfully put together and so much emotion poured out. I look forward to checking more of your writings out! ~Kelsey
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Hi, thank you. I truly appreciate your feedback. Thank you for visiting!
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This so rhythmic, finds its way touching deep within …and paints the entire picture clearly! Beautiful!
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Pragal, thank you so much. This is one of my favorites. I am glad it’s being well-received. 😊
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You are most welcome! I truly loved it 🙂
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The last verse…BAM! Love the push and pull of this piece.
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Ha! Awesome! Thank you, Mags!
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You’re welcome, Tre. 🙂
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Oh loved it!
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Thank you!
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Whoa! It’s like you crawl inside my head and pull all the rubbish together and create something meaningful out of it. This is stunning. Thank you.
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Kirsty, thank you very much for reading and the feedback. I truly appreciate it.
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